I posted a photo of myself in which I thought I looked beautiful. Pretty. One comment however, told me otherwise. "Sexy." Is what they said. No big deal right? A compliment right?
Well to tell you the truth, I don't see the word "sexy" as a compliment. It's not an insult either ofcourse, but to me it isn't a compliment either. Beautiful for example means that the image as a whole is pleasing to look at. That you look like a beautiful person.
Sexy however feels like it immediately downgrades me to what I would look like without clothes on. It looks at me and picks my boobs and butt, and maybe my lips out of that and keeps it. The rest is discarded as irrelevant.
That, to me, does not feel like a compliment. That feels like, a very shallow way of looking at a person. And also as a failure. Because my picture, my body, my face, could not make you feel more than just that boring human instinct to feel sexually attracted to something. I feel like I should be more than that.
I feel like I am more than that.