#brief #verleden #levensproblemen This is a letter to the 12-year-old version of myself. It's mostly about the things I have personally stalggled with. This is how I look back on it now. This is what I would have said if I'd run into myself.

Hi I,
First of all, I want to tell you that you need to spend as much time as you can with your father. Show him what kind of drawings you make or tell him what you're dealing with or what you'd like to do. No matter how hard you are, try to look past it or find a solution. You don't have to be friends with everyone. You do not always have to listen and communicate with peers. High school is tricky, especially first year.
The changes you're going through are huge. A schedule that is almost impossible to hold up. A body that doesn't cooperate. I know it's hard for you to get a woman's body and prefer to be seen as one of the boys. It will always be possible. Do not push yourself into things that you do not want to wear or do.
I know how much rage you carry with you and can't put it anywhere. Sport is a wonderful way to unload steam and draw differently. Please always be yourself. Try to grow multiple talents. Draw something new. It's okay to fail. Another's bad opinion is NOT important. Do not always try to see adults as the enemy. Of course, they don't know everything, but they always want to help you. Especially your parents. You don't have to be afraid to tell me what's going on. Don't think of them as an obligation, but as a family.
No matter how many stimuli you catch in a day, you know that after every mountain you get stronger. Because they will still be coming.
Your level and your height is not important. You feel worse because you're little. You want to be a better athlete, but all girls with longer legs beat you easier. Everyone at your elementary school has a higher level but knows it's not important. You do sports for yourself. For your own performance and you will always get the support you need. Do not overload yourself. Give yourself the rest you need.
And with the level. It's not important. The things you like the most are not at MAVO/HAVO.
Enjoy the things that make you happy. Enjoy Findus.
It's not worth worrying about all the things that are not yet coming. Enjoy the moment. Make your life slow. Day a day, nothing more.

Greetings from yourself