Bullet journal- Uncertainty
Always wanting to be good for others. I always stand/was ready again. I often forgot myself about this because someone else needed it in my eyes more than I did. I often turned off my own feeling. Another one first and then me. And why really? Because I was always insecure about myself Physically and Mentally. Never felt good enough. Always had the feeling of not belonging. If I told a joke “what I didn't even dare anymore in the long run,” I was devastated with laughter while everyone was sitting at me stupid looking at me. That's why I often wondered, Am I insecure or made insecure ? I didn't love myself because I thought I was different. Even though someone didn't see me, I did everything for the one. It was often said ohh that does diana do for a while.
And I walked back like a crazy sheep. My candle had been extinguished for a long time. At one point this became more and more clear when my husband said to me NO, you stay seated! Whether and now it's over, let them walk after you only once! YES he was right. And at that point, a button was going to. I wasn't myself, I was lived. I didn't have my own opinion. Now with the help of ipggz and my husband I have become myself. I dare to stand up for myself and the rest has changed too. The only thing I found difficult about this is that I look pretty much like my father. I never had any connection with my dad. But he was himself and dreadfull to show this too. This also often scared me off. Because I often heard people talk bad about him. This can also be bad myself. Because yes how/what would those people think of me if. Now I think well I'm just like my dad and then people just talk about me. I want to be myself and the one who doesn't accept this has a good bad luck. I care about myself and my candle is burning again. And I'm pretty proud of that!
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Chalija
3 years ago
Nice text. Good thing you've changed yourself. It may also be there. Live your life the way you want it. It's nice that your husband stimulated you in that.
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marijke
3 years ago
of course, you also look like your father, you are his flesh and blood. And about your joke, you have a different humor, I do recognize, my husband has that too. Sometimes he is completely in a dent and when he shows it to me I don't understand what he likes... Show moreof course, you also look like your father, you are his flesh and blood. And about your joke, you have a different humor, I do recognize, my husband has that too. Sometimes he is completely in a dent and when he shows it to me I don't understand what he likes about that and I actually have to laugh because of him. He doesn't like movies that everyone sends and we have fun on. Look, that's not to say there's something wrong with you, is just a different humor. And that's a good thing, we're all different and you're good the way you are. But top me is that your candle will burn again and make sure the flame never goes out again.💖
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Marc
3 years ago
Always be who you are, and if people can't laugh with your jokes, it's the wrong ones in your area.
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