It's the end of the school year again, the moment the senior students graduate. And I, too, have been trying to pass my exam assignment for quite some time. I also put a lot on Yoo.rs about this project called “Nutshell”. But that's not all that comes with this. In it I show the process and the things I make for it, but not the stress and other emotions that come with it... And that's what I want to talk to you about right now.
This is something I prefer not to talk about, but it is definitely something I should mention because sometimes I get the idea that a study is underestimated. Children/Students can sometimes get under a lot of stress and if this is not handled properly then this can have bad consequences. For example, I know a lot of people who have had a burnout that they have had to quit their education or that there is just so much stress because the deadlines are not attainable. But I'm not going to talk about the other students right now, but about myself...
How I was thrown out of school.
I am attending a two-year education, an associate degree in Design and Digital Media at the HKU in Utrecht. Now I have already trained in the media myself, but this was quite different. The teachers, supervisors and students not only look at what you can do... Because I can do and make a lot, so I always knew myself as a creative maker. So I can make video, animation, games and much more! Only I thought that I could and should do everything myself, in the end I was dropped out of school after my first year. This was because I was a bit all-knowing and arrogant, because of this I could not communicate well with other people because I saw myself above other people.
Uncertainty, something I'm sure we've all had to deal with. Uncertain about the future, yourself, love, or success in your life. I can honestly admit that I have been uncertain about all this. I often had the uncertainty about this training and whether I could still succeed here. This would have been a real eye opener for me. That is why I have done everything I can to be able to follow this study again. And after a lot of effort, conversations, second chances and new appointments I succeeded.
I was able to return to the training with a month behind which I had to keep up with the current lessons and also to catch up with everything that was before. I also started asking for the help of a tutor to get everything on the same page. And so I've been walking with that uncertainty for a long time. During this time I also had some breakdowns and burst into tears. Because after a summer holiday of full work to come back, I finally got back to training and had to do twice as much work!