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@rosita.charlene · 20 Dec 2021

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Feelings

Feelings,
Something everyone knows.
Feeling like you're not part of it.
Is just the worst feeling there is.
Feeling accepted, I think everyone wants to.
I also want to be accepted by everyone for whom I am.
I am a woman who may often do things wrong and not always right.
I too have a feeling and a lot of people get on that very often these days.

I feel bad about it and don't know how to describe it very well.
I therefore prefer a little more off and would rather not have contact with people.
I'm afraid I'm being hurt every time by the people.
It hurts me and hurts so much.

Have had to go through so much and have changed me so many times for many people
Never has it been enough. I'm still not accepted.
It just feels like it sucks.
I am also a woman with feeling.
And yes, I have been through a lot in my life and that has made me what I am today.
And yes, I know, I'm not always easy going and yet I've changed myself so many times for everyone.

I often wonder, it's good that I always try to adapt to people?
Are people to be trusted?
Do I deal with the people wrong, so they do this to me again and again?

I actually don't know it all once.

Also at this time of Christmas, then you have to be happy and happy.
I've been very depressed lately and don't feel welcome with the people.
I also don't feel accepted for who I am and what I do.

Was always told many times that I change people but can also change people.
I have changed so many times in the hope that I was accepted by the people I care about.

People often pretend that I'm also part of it and that I'm accepted because they're afraid they'll lose something else.
People just asked how I was doing and showed them a little interest in me in just moving in their self.

The feeling I have is just not to be accepted for who I am and what I do.
I don't have much of my own family.
Only have a sister that I have contact with who is also here on Yoors and for the rest I have no one from my own family anymore.

My mother died when I was 16 years old. Have a brother who stomps me into the ground and doesn't have his own life on the ride at all.
Half a brother that I have a bit of contact with but also suffers his own life that is doing really well.
And well have a father who doesn't like me.
Got photos back from my family of him and that's a sign that I can actually rot up and doesn't mean anything to him.
My children suffer a lot of that and that hurts me a lot.

My own family is a fat chunky gang so to say it.
That's just no fun anymore.
I am happy with the contact I have with my sister, but everything has been said with that.

Sometimes I miss my mom a lot then I think where is she, because I'm still so much needed.

Now I've been together with my male for almost 12 years. Many times I have thought to feel accepted in the family, but unfortunately I have found out that it turns out to be untrue.
They'd love to look away from me.
And yes, I also get why, because if something is not on me or anything, yes, I also give my opinion on that.
It's even said I changed my husband.
It's not even thought that people have changed by themselves.
There should always be someone else to blame for that.

Really, I love my man very much and I really don't want to lose it again .
I've always said him and I forever.
And yes, we don't always have it easy,
But I also always try to do my best very well. Like everyone else, I just think that way.

I have a bad feeling and yes I have for a while and yes maybe it's just me and yes maybe I should do something about it
But I do think that people can accept me as I am.
I'm also an early with feeling and I'm really often kicked on by other people.

My life really hasn't always been easy and sometimes it's not easy yet and that sometimes sucks quite badly.

You just shouldn't feel bad.
And now I'm writing everything off me and sharing this with you, that air up a little bit.

I don't want anyone to feel bad and I don't want to feel bad, but I'm really done with it sometimes.
I think many of you know that. Be done with everything.

Writing is sometimes really a relief, so to say it.

For now, I'm closing because this is really going to be way too long, this whole story and whining of me here.
Many will understand and maybe some won't.

Lots of Love @Rosita &Charlene-Blogs-Creations
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