When we started talking, you weren’t the way you are now – you were very nice. You’d pursue me and calm my tides. I liked you from the beginning, but fear held me back, and then, one day, you told me that you like me. I climbed the wall that I’d built around myself and jumped. You caught me.

And then, you broke my #heart – with your sweet words and your #charm, you built this whole thing on a lie, and always left me thinking, “Isn’t he nice? He’s paying attention to me.”
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You’d push me away and say that we are a mess and we’re going too fast, heading right for the cliff. And then, you’d pull me in very calmly and tell me that we need to piece it out… figure out and help each other. You spoke two things and left me #confused.

At first, I didn’t notice the changes and abuse. It was subtle. People are blinded by niceness more often than by #love. What’s worse is that you had charmed my #friends, too – the ones who were supposed to be my last line of defense. You had laid out this perfect plan and they couldn’t see through it either. They would just say, “You must have done something.” You blurred the world for me.

You moved in with everything – your problems, your #insecurities, and your lifestyle. And you made sure I kicked everything out – my confidence, my friends, my work, and my old self.

The damage you’ve caused is not irreparable but the scars are going to stay and it’s going to be harder to climb the wall again. I only hope that things will get better, over time.

You have a way with #people. I now understand why you’re so good at facing the tides that come your way – you are a fisherman who knows how to catch a fish.
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To the #toxic one