Cyla

· 29 Jun 2020

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Today is Hannah? Who's Hannah? Well Hannah is #verslaafd . She's my knowledge and ozo sweet. By confluence of circumstances victim of her circumstances and the environment in which she lives and surrounds herself.

For years she's been hooked in the city, from one corner to the other.
She's been begging for miles.
I've known her for years and she's friends with my ex (addicted).

Ever since my children are little, she makes time for me and takes all the time to greet the children.
She frees herself from what she's doing, but never forget to beg me.
I always give her something not much of course, but still something and something delicious from my bag when I have it with me.

In all these years, I've seen her fall and stand up, rehab, and see her under dope.
Still, things are not bad with her and she has not lost her sense of beauty and cheerfulness.
When I meet her a big smile always appears on her face, this is why I always stop and have a chat.

Hannah sweet, cheerful social woman but addicted.
I look at her and I see and look at another side.
When I look at her, look into her eyes in the mirror of my inner negative soul.
I too have a negative side.
A dark side I'd rather not see but strong enough to survive.
I'm very addictive but strong enough to stay away and off.
My body doesn't crave it, but sometimes I think what it would be like.
Forgetting your troubles and worries and swoon away in oblivion.

This is how it happened with pammets or drinks at dinner or at all with food.
An addiction is an assassin, it comes into your life to never disappear.
A fight you'll have to fight every day, you want to get rid of it.
As the saying says"Once addicted, always addicted.”
It's always waiting for a corner to grab you again at an unguarded moment. Whether it's an unconscious or conscious choice doesn't matter. It grabs you by the throat, then you enjoy it and sway again.

Hannah, it's... #spiegelbeeld that I could be, but I'm not.
She's in a place I don't want to be, but she reminds me that it could be.