Anitabc

· 16 Mar 2022

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It's been a long time since I posted.
In the middle of last year, our whole life was turned upside down.
My husband decided to leave, he didn't say anything. There was no letter, no verdict and no consultation. Police have been called, imagine there was something bad. But none of that, to keep a long story short. He wanted to start a new life, a life without me, not with me and the kids. A New Beginning. This has had an impact on us and all the energy I had, I was needed for my kids. To be there for them, to pick up life again. To be with them and move on. Usually it is said, you won't know what you're missing until there's not. Well, his departure turned out to be the best for us. I can give the kids what they need, keep my promises and pay all the attention to me. Since he's gone, I've only found out how much energy our marriage has cost me. How much I should have fought alone and how much I put myself in second place. When he disappeared, it was difficult and sadness and misunderstanding. Especially I went through different phases. At first, I was sad, then I was angry with him and then I looked for the blame for myself. Bit, by little it was possible to let go of this. It also went better because the kids were getting better. Now it's going better than it went in years. I have come out stronger, I now have work and dare to dream again. Have more energy again and the kids got everything better on the ride. I know energy to do things I like and now discover passions with it, I find peace in Yoga and meditation and now also read. I also picked up the old hobbies, painting, making cards and diamond panting. More time for my friends. And found energy again for something I really like, write. So will be more active again. I am proud of myself and even though more misery will come my way after the divorce. I'm strong enough. #na rain comes sunshine #trust on your inner strength #faith in your self #getup and move on