Mom and Dad, how I miss you.

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@rosita.charlene · 08 May 2023

Mom and Dad, how I miss you.

Mom and Dad, how I miss you in my life.
Life is so difficult and so unfair.
Why did you let me come into the world, I ask myself more and more often.
Do I deserve to be kicked by my brother and sister over and over again?
Do they have to use me again and again?
Can I never even open my mouth and say what I think about it?

It would have been better if I hadn't been there. I really don't need to have a family like that.

I want to have a family that loves and helps each other and follows each other's advice and actions and treats them with respect.

But unfortunately, that's not the case for me.

Now I got another kick, so I actually smell like thanks.

Why do they always have to have me?

Can't they just accept me and my husband and my kids?

Is it because I'm not perfect?
Can't I make my voice heard?

In this family, all I have is sorrow.

Should I, but above all, protect my family from this.

I want my kids to feel love and not that hate and envy.

So say goodbye to this family and choose for myself.

Stop letting me step into the ground and hurt me.

That is over from now on.

I am now demolished and I have a lot of pain and sorrow.

Let me be alone, that's better than getting a flight of stairs over and over again.

But I can tell you one thing: I miss you two so much in my life.

If only there were a staircase to go to you.
Just get a hug, talk.

I miss that in my life.
But who knows, maybe my time will come when I'll be with you again soon.

Do you miss Mom and Dad. If only you could come back.

Every day those tears, every day thinking why I was left in this crappy family.

I mean absolutely nothing to them.
And that hurts.

I always have to hear the story that you're not my real dad. I have to hear every time that I'm so bad.

That hurts so much.
Do you ever stop this sorrow?
Give me a sign of that because I'm broken.

I don't want more. I was so happy that the band with my brother was back.
And because of a woman who only tells lies, he is so blind that he kicks me away for the umpteenth time.

I have the feeling that I'm only good at helping them and that I can rot out again.

That just hurts.

Money can't buy my love. My love is free and I want to give it away and get it back from people who really care about me.

Mom and Dad, I miss you guys in my life.

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Ik herken hier zoveel in. Heb hetzelfde mee gemaakt en de knoop doorgehakt door voor mezelf en gezin te kiezen. heb nu alleen nog redelijk contact met één zusje. En mijn ouders zijn overleden. Ik wens je heel veel sterkte en wijsheid toe. ❤️