nouha.kpoper

· 31 Jul 2020

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Dear Narcissist

Dear Narcissist ,,,
I've put myself in your shoes , I traumatized myself by your own traumas and cried for you ...
I ended up seeing something relatable and I find myself remembering what you had and I end up with anxiety attacks thinking that it was my fault for not being there for you...
I didn't give you only what I have but I gave you out of myself , I gave without thinking of me...
I've put the mask on you and forgot about myself forgetting that it doesn't matter how strong I may be , I will surely die without the oxygen but I still put it on you , first ...
Everyday for the past successive months , I did the same thing non stop but if I can't take care of myself I wouldn't be able to take care of you and if you continue on draining me , I would never come back alive..
I kept on trying to stay and doing my best neglecting the fact that I am not cared for...
I was each day trying to be better and help you out but all you did was abusing me emotionally ...
if you can't see it , it doesn't mean it doesn't exist , and I ended up with trying to cope with traumas that weren't mine ..
And now , I am going to put a paper to challenge myself to care for myself for 10mins a day , I will take 10mins to put the mask on me first , I will take 10 mins to pray , to meditate and it'll only take 10mins ...
#moveon #youcan #holdon #love #youreself #care #foryou #stop #nomore #pain