“ No, I don't need a relationship for the time being. I'm fine with it. I can see it” my answers to questions why I'm still girding and how it happened. I lie to make someone else feel guilty because I've been so long I lie because otherwise people will think that something is wrong with me. I lie to make myself feel better. And I feel better? Absolutely not.

Sure I want a guy to share my life with. To do things together or to sit on the couch together. He does his thing and I do mine. Someone you know takes you for the way you are, someone who dares to show you, someone who tells others about you. 

I think I'm in a dip right now. , I have never felt confident or thought that I matter. Occasionally I have these days that I feel like I can handle the world, that the world needs to watch out for me today. Very sometimes I feel, today I'm going to do it today I'm going to make it. that feeling is usually pretty fast over. 

I pretend I'm happy, but actually I feel lonely. It's just not. A lot of friends, family I've chosen and 2 dogs. So why do I whine? I've already had therapy for myself, to change about That went well for a few months. Then it just went from the start. 

Where is my prince on the white horse? Where is my Romeo? Aha I always say, there will be, I really will come across. Only I know that I am getting old only with my dogs. Because I don't even dare to go to a man during a party, I can't flirt and I don't dare to take the first step. So I guess I'm old-fashioned. The man has to court the woman, take the first step and make an effort. Not anymore, but I'm telling myself because someday, I meet this true Jacob. Because I get to be there and I am who I am. No one who changes me and there is really someone who accepts me for the way I am.

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Marjolein
ik riep vorig jaar vol overtuiging dat ik geen relatie meer wilde, helemaal nooit meer. En daar stond ik ook echt achter. Wat mij toen is overkomen, is het tegenovergestelde. Dat wens ik iedereen toe.
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jolandemooij
Komt me heel bekend voor. Heb alleen geen honden maar een kat. En de keren dat ik het initiatief heb genomen om de eerste stap te zetten hebben ook nog niet het gewenste resultaat opgeleverd. Ik probeer mezelf maar te vermaken. 
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