awa.esther

· 14 May 2020

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#letthedarknessin

Love from #nigeria 

I didn’t feel too good for the most of today and for someone who likes to trace my #feelings to the root just so I can deal appropriately with them, I decided to leave my desk for a moment and lie down for a bit.
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As I lay down, I realized that those rays you see got in my face so sharply I couldn’t stand them anymore. My eyes hurt; my head began to ache and I just knew it was time to go dark To #dimthelights for a while.
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In my case, I shut my windows and in the #inthedark and in something shy of 15 minutes, I began to feel somewhat better.
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I realize now that that’s exactly how piercing #knowledge can be. You see those sharp rays? As illuminating and #empowering as they are, making you feel good and lighting up everything?
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The downside is that they can wear you out. I had controlled the amount of light I allowed into my eyes. My glasses, #moderation with #lighting in my room. In fact, I didn’t know when the bulbs stopped working one time because I didn’t use them that often.
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Light’s great but can we for a second look at it figuratively? Light is knowledge; #information ; awareness but it’s actually possible to be very #knowledgeable yet confused about the same thing that we know so much about.
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Also possible to be too ‘lit’ it becomes a cause for concern or too exposed we begin to lose a sense of self and get fatigued in the bid to find ourselves again.
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Well, I’m not saying you should dwell in the dark; I’m only just saying just stay there for a while; lean back. Process those thoughts and emotions that get suppressed in the quest of the relevance that comes with the light.
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It informs our decisions on what lights to turn off entirely, those to dim and the ones to allow shine in and around us.
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Right now, I’m not sure I made sense but I just like to write and hey! It’s my wall, last I checked 😂
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