nouha.kpoper

· 16 Apr 2020

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a story of my life...

I couldn't start writing without putting a sad song , they tell sad songs wake up your emotional instincts and push your brain to go back to your dearest memories , your sad moments , the time you thought you will never pass it or survive it but here you are going back in time with only using some nerves and organs but the sad fact is you are relieving the saved pain you felt that time because your brain's so good at doing so … I can't tell that I am sad or anything but I feel like out of breaths , stuck and empty … However , I am writing that with eyes full of tears which are curious to assist to that activity of a non writer , I think they would laugh at me and turn their backs leaving me in the time I need them the most like any other human being… Don't you think that those who we always think they'll stay , leave?
And that's funny … don't you think it is ?
In all the ways , I am sure you felt that way after months of the break ups or even years and yet , you still feel dumb and scared to go out from your comfort zone … After all , it's a human job to fall so hard for things , get hurt , accept to pass to grief then be scared to step out from his comfort zone which we call independence while it's an excuse we use to totally convince ourselves of being okay while we're not .. It's not fine to run away , It's not fine to be not fine and not to try to survive , it's not fine to cry yourself at night until you sleep , it's not fine to overly eat , to overly stress out , It's not fine at all to call that a life And that's the story of my life …
#Notes #storyofmylife #sorrynotsorry #beokay #lifeishell