Practical information to help with depersonalization and/or derealization
It was a beautiful spring day and the sun shone in my face as I enjoyed the weather. I cycled back from school after a long and grueling day of study and wondered what the supper would be. As I cycled, something strange happened, the feeling that I have slipped through my fingers in reality. This process continued the rest of the day and in the evening in front of the mirror I saw a body standing there. Reality was completely blurred and I felt alienated from myself. It was like I wasn't in the body anymore. It's going to be years before I finally figure out what happened now. And even longer to discover ways to escape from that state. It was like I was a fish that was placed in a plastic bag of water and thrown into the water. You're in the water but at the same time you're not there, you 'exchange bubbles' with other fish. But you're behind a barrier and there's no way to escape, where are you going to escape? Depersonalization/derealization devalues your whole reality because you simply no longer experience that reality. You're like another object in the room but can't touch the objects. You don't live in the body but are lived by an overactive brain activity. You can't sleep because you're freaking about it and in fact you think it's for the rest of your life and completely hopeless (it's not.!). Food becomes a kind of mechanical afterthought, yes feels a little better, but it's not the same as it used to be. Sex barely interests you, you watch the other teens or adults are happy, dating and doing other things. And at the same time, you feel indifferent and despondent because this aspect of your life was blatantly snatched away from you. You wonder why you deserve that. What the hell did I do to experience something like that? (this section of the blog is depressing but please read it. by).
In summary, I wouldn't wish my worst enemy, and yet, you can get out of it. You just need to know how that can be done and this blog is about it. If you want to philosophize, discuss, or prove something, that's not for you. It is a hands-on work that was put together purely out of the sense of solidarity. If you've been through that hell and have had to experience it, then there is a kind of sympathy for the people who are in the same situation. Moreover, at the time I was helped a lot by blogs like this and YouTube movies of the people who explained what you can do to escape from that state. And the least I can do is to write something like that to redeem my 'debt' and in that way move the generation after me forward. It's an insider perspective, a story from an experience expert if you like.
In what follows, I will provide information on a per-point basis that can be applied to work slowly on yourself. It's a rope I drop in the dark tunnel, it's up to you the choice of what to do with that rope. Are you going to climb up slowly and painfully or torch that thing to pretend you didn't see anything because it's much easier?
You're not alone: depersonalization and/or derealization is something that several people are going through in other parts of the world. There may be a feeling of being isolated and you tend to withdraw from the world. This is something I would highly advise against, it is important to stay weekly among the people and prefer ably find a hobby that helps you connect with the others. Over the years of depersonalization, I have done the following things to deal with: zen meditation, capoeira, parkour, swimming and many other activities. It may seem like a big challenge and you have the feeling of total indifference. This is the point where you have to overcome yourself to take small steps to get back among the people.
Zijn profielnaam is r bhat en hier kan je het lezen:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jaqSZ3yiS4M
De reactie heb ik hier geplakt omdat het volgens mij de moeite is om zeker eens te lezen (het is in het Engels):
You can completely "cure" yourself in a very short amount of time . We all know its a result of "Trauma " either from a panic attack or drugs a way to protect your body . So stop that worry its not a mental disorder , but actually I congratulate you all . Your brain is working perfectly as its supposed to work . Your trauma has put your Amygdala to a sensitized state . Consider the sensitized state as scale high/low in just temperature . Now have you experienced , when you didn't have anxiety disorder / DP you were emotionally strong or not sensitive to emotional thoughts or worries . So it answers your first anxious question "Will it will come back again just by feeling worried about your exams or any worry in the future ?" After going away Amygdala would not be "sensitized" So it will not come back .
Again we all very well know that stopping the anxiety cycle would all together heal you as you have read everywhere . The real deal is to quieten the mind which keeps on having anxious thoughts no matter how much you distract myself or no matter how much you fight it . These anxious thoughts keeps on cycling you though the same anxiety cycle and slightest anxiety during "de-personalized state " makes DP/DR stay and we know why "sensitized Amygdala". In normal state if you have same level of worrying thought it wouldn't trigger back anxiety because Amygdala is no sensitized. Only if 1000 pound grizzly bear is running after you in the jungle then there is a chance getting it back again :) .
If you can spend a week totally not being anxious about it or any future anxiety about it 95% of your symptoms would go away . Rest 10% is just passing time to forget that you once had it :D
Anxiety basically comes after thoughts arise in mind .
Now how do you stop your thoughts?
NO ! NO ! you cant stop thoughts or fight thoughts that is where you are going wrong about it . Thoughts are the product of Subconscious mind in other words "Conditioned mind". In a scenario of anxiety/DR/DR its a mind "Conditioned" by your anxiety. "Conditioned mind" or Subconscious mind basically has no connection with logical brain . It basically throws thoughts and then your "conscious mind" is just at a mere mercy of those thoughts . Now if you fight it becomes become stronger and thoughts persist. You resist it persist . One cant stop it :D. So the trick is to "Separate your self from thoughts" . So whenever any anxious thoughts appear . Don't reply, don't fight back . Just watch and listen to them . Identify that these are from automatic "Conditioned mind" . These thoughts are not True. Its the same voice that sometimes tells you "You are not good enough ", "You wont be able to do it", "People don't like me", etc etc all that bullshit Its automatic and has no logic . We are not our thoughts or images perceived in our head. Just listen to that anxious voice in your head and laugh at it . Anxiety is a LIE , its a lie and it wants you to believe its lies . This would make more sense when you will be able to see the "LIE" in it . Do this for one week . Symptoms almost go and then you would be actually know the lie of anxiety /DP DR. Would you ever follow that lie again ? thats the cure .
Now thought comes "is it true? what if it wont heal me ? what if I am different ? what if he was different and I am not? what if I am going crazy ? what if it comes back in future ? "
These are all thoughts and automatic . Are you going to believe them ? change the perception of your source of these thoughts and see what happens . best way if to visualize them as coming from a monster in your head . That fucker doesn't want you to recover ( which is true indeed) once you stop believing that monster thoughts lose power and slowly they disappear . After sometime you mind will be left with nothing and you can focus attention to you normal things , but if you fight it as you have been doing till now and it hasn't helped and never will . it hits back . You are trying to solve a problem that doesn't exist . You are fighting your minds self defense mechanism that's DP/DR which is pointless to fight ? It needs a calm mind to go away .
PS : No medication . Its not an illness . Its a thought perception problem and cant be solved by a pill :)