#YoorsCoronaPositiveChallenge

This is a personal pieceA piece in which I do not want to trivialize the seriousness of everything.
We're still healthy, so maybe I have easy talking.
Fear is there. There are times when I sit quietly staring at me and don't know what to do anymore. Afraid I can't protect my family. Afraid of uncertainty. Afraid not to know what's to come. Afraid of responsibility.
What could be positive about this corona period?

Through fear, I learn again and again where my courage lies. I learn to let go of control. I learn that I can't be responsible for everything.
And I see... and I look... and I listen... and I feel even deeper.
I see the flowers come out of their buds and the sun shine.
I'm lying in the garden with my daughter looking at the sky. Bright blue and we notice that there is not a single plane stripe to discover. The sky seems more intense blue than ever.
Our kids are home. Pretty heavy sometimes. But I see things happening that I've never seen before. They find each other. My teenage daughter laughing at her five-year-old brother.
Both of our teenagers going outside and playing with the youngest. They come up with the craziest things, spend hours outside. Previously, they were with no stick to get out of the door.
We work in the care sector, so we'll have to get out of the door. Our kids are sometimes alone at home. We see how much they do independently, how responsible they can already be.
We see them growing.
We see them more than ever. Not only literally, but also figuratively.
Their full agenda is also less full and space has emerged.
I see creativity, self-solving ability. But above all, I discover a lot of love towards each other.

Like I said, I work in healthcare. In a care center. No more visitors. No family. Partners who have been together for years can't see each other anymore.
Now three corona suspects in the ward. Honestly, it was a day of fear that day. And yet, because of that fear, you find a way again. The path of hope and of trust. And still fear, but then something happens inside that the fear doesn't control me anymore.
Precautions could have been better in my opinion and I learn to stand up for myself. By indicating that I'm not comfortable with it. That something needs to change so that we feel protected. I don't normally open my mouth so quickly learn to do this now. Because I want to take care of myself and my loved ones and because I feel that that is the most important thing to me...
Because, even though I did realize that, you learn what really matters.
And then there are drawings at work. Our two departments are full of it. People send cards with beautiful, heartwarming texts. Children make drawings and write notes and it gives our residents a smile on their faces. So valuable. We also need to be creative at work. I am day spending coach/welfare employee and our work is suddenly quite different. I get calls from people who want to come and sing outside the courtyard. We Skype with family members and we take pictures of residents and email them to caregivers. I always thought it was the little things that do it, but now it's even more visible and palpable. It doesn't take away the lack, but if I can give someone a smile or something small to someone, it warms my heart.

I do not experience the fact that we can't go out there as very much. I feel much less pressure to think of something to do again. We don't have to do anything.
All the hurry is over.
We're gonna do other things. We all find our way around the house but are becoming more and more creative in finding it. More creative in finding ourselves.
Sometimes I still think I have to think of things to entertain the kids. And then I realize that's not necessary.

The other day I drove down our street by car on my way to work. There were three people on the street that morning who looked and laughed kindly. It gives such a warm feeling inside.
I meet people with their own piece and I meet people who have a lot of love and warmth to give. There are people we don't know who offer help. I see it happening everywhere.
It is a pity that this must be caused by something that also causes victims. But let us try to get the positive out of this. Let's look at each other.
Really going to see each other. Be a little sweet to each other and sometimes very sweet.
Look at the blue sky, feel the warmth of the sun. The flowers come out... That happens “just” but is now so palpable.
There's a lot of loss in this situation.
But there is also so much growth.
Grow in yourself.
Grow around you.
Growth in the bigger picture.