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Weekly on Monday morning there will be an email from Annelies. It concerns the virtue of the week. A nice way to focus your attention and focus your thoughts.
This week is the virtue self-confidence. I was inspired by the text below.


Confidence.
The first sentence that comes to mind is: self-knowledge leads to self-confidence.
If you know what your actions are based on, then there is no place for fear.
If you know why you make that particular choice, there's trust.
Trust in Yourself.
To the outside world, it may seem like I'm acting like a chicken without a head. Inside, I know exactly why I may or may not take steps, do things. Because I've learned who I am, where I come from, what my motives are.


As a little girl I was insecure, anxious, scared, when the master of the 6th grade elementary school looked at me I already got a red head. I turned away, always wanted to sit in the back of class so no one would see me.
Shy they called it, I call it scared now. I had no idea what people wanted from me or what I should do or say. My attention was to the reaction of the other. What will he or she think of me, think of me. I did not know how to pay attention to my own feelings and emotions. I peed my pants, just because I didn't feel like I had to go to the bathroom.
I was often cold and shivering and shaking like a straw.
That little girl had no idea who she was or what she wanted. Gradually, my life has changed.
At first I became a radical adolescent. Angry at the world, why all those wars and that violence. I kicked society and shouted it had to change. I don't know how, I just kicked.


I had no idea which way I wanted to go, I subconsciously searched for rest and relaxation, instead my life became busier and busier. I got a job as a branch owner of a flower shop, got married had children, took over the flower shop as a franchiser and later as an independent entrepreneur. Often I let myself be guided by fate, or the universe. If I didn't know, I'd postpone choices, confident that it would be okay.
Sometimes I did that very consciously, but more often it was unconscious.
And then there comes that day when you wonder,
What am I doing here on Earth, why am I living?
2 of my best friends died in a car accident. On an ordinary Sunday morning, that message came. My girlfriend died instantly, her husband has been in a coma for almost two years. At that time I really became aware of the richness of my emotions and feelings. I was a young mother with one small child and pregnant with the second.
Joy, sadness, fear, joy, anger, anger, it alternated so quickly.
When I went to my store I found peace, there I knew what I had to do, I knew my role.
At home, I was lost, I couldn't get along with all those emotions.. I just didn't know them. The unrest and fear inside I expressed in hard work and continuing. Talk, how is that, with whom?


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