I have typed a thousand #goodbye #letters, somehow everything just seems #incomplete. I keep rewriting it all over again and again.

Maybe, it’s because I can never say goodbye to you. No matter how many people I laugh along with, my insecurities would still find comfort in your arms. With you, I shed all my layers, all the facade. For your eyes only, I am my true self. My #scars, my kinkiest personality, my demons. You embraced them all.
I would like to believe that I did the same for you. I would like to believe that you could be your absolute self with me. Could you? All I really wanted to do was love you, be there for you, help you grow and cheer you on as you achieve your #dreams. But I don’t think that I was ever able to do that.

Instead, I brought you down. I messed up. I am not going to bind you to me. That is not you. You do not like being constricted. You have sky-high ambitions with a passion that lights an inferno in your soul.

And it’s not wrong, my #love, for you shall not be dimmed. And I do not want to change you. Not even one bit. Your dreams set you apart.
You told me that we do not really know each other. No one ever really does. But I would have spent my whole life getting to know all your little quirks. I cannot make you stay. That is your choice to make. But I cannot stop myself from loving you. When you really love someone, you never really stop.

Because if you do, it wasn’t love in the very first place. And it’s absolutely okay. This is me trying to say goodbye. I hope you have an amazing life. With everything that you ever dreamed of. And don’t be afraid, you are strong. You will get back up. Keep the ones you love close, life is #meaningless without love. Be #happy.
Yours truly, The #Girl who wasn’t enough.
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To the #guy who has always been there for me