Happy unhappy

la_be52

· 23 Jan 2020

Happy unhappy

Only in bed.. it's quiet. My thoughts go free. And I think about how I am blessed with the things I have. A roof over my head that I have arranged so that I don't just like being at home, but where I can find my peace and where I feel safe. My Private Domain. And more importantly, a place where I can't be judged. A place where I can be myself and don't have to wear my mask. The yin and the yang... recognize the dark side and the bright side in me. So I can accept everything from myself. But it's not that easy... I sometimes fight with myself and the pain I feel. Sometimes I'm surprised and overwhelmed by emotions that I can't stop them. Which can sometimes be overwhelming.. Deep in my heart I am happy with the people around me but sometimes I feel sad or rather unhappy. Then when I step back and dwell on the things I see and experience.... I feel the pain in my heart and in my body to my soul. And that feels so intense.. is that normal? And can that be... happy and unhappy at the same time? Sometimes as a human being we are so faded to always be happy that sometimes you forget to be human, because pain or being unhappy is a taboo. And that also makes it difficult to be able to have compassion for other people when you're so hard on yourself. I realize now that pain and sadness are also part of life. It is important to embrace suffering as something that belongs to reality. Pain and suffering is like reality does not quite correspond to our needs and desires. By tolerating pain, by facing the misery of existence and not running away from it, you can, as it were, be cleansed by the pain. That's something I experience intensely but that also makes it better for me to accept the pain. I don't want to numb the pain and sorrow but accept it as it is. Is being unhappy really as bad as people make you think? Isn't being unhappy and having pain something you can approach with passion?

Without one, you can't experience the other

Happy unhappy

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Lala