Loss and Grief Reactions (3)
I do
Today a blog that's a bit more personal than different. A blog about loss and grief responses. A reaction that I have a lot of experience with myself. I do, a phrase I have called to my mother a lot of times from the age I was just 6 years old. I don't remember everything very well, somewhere I supplanted a thing or two. Perhaps because there was no room to talk about feelings and emotions due to loss and grief. Anyway, this is my story.
In March 1989 I was a little girl just 6 years old. I had a brother of 8 years above me and under me two sisters, one of almost 3 and 1 of almost 1. In this March, we would actually have two more brothers. You may already guess where this story is going? Just before my mother was due, my mother had to deal with a bacterial infection. This bacterial infection was also found to be harmful to pregnancy. At 38 weeks, both of my brothers have died in the world.
You may be able to imagine the impact that this has, but I will still describe it from my own memory. My mother fell into depression due to the loss of my two brothers and did little to nothing more about caring for my brother, me and my two sisters. My dad didn't know how to deal with it and drowned himself in hard work. For many days he was away from home. My mom had a really hard time with this. So much so, that she even tried to end her life in the end.
Unfortunately, there was little to no help in this situation around our family. I have always been and have always been very sensitive to certain changes and attracted me very much. I unknowingly took over the mother role, without being asked. There were two more little ones in the house who needed care, and my mom didn't or barely look at this.
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