Since 2016, borderline has been established at me by a psychologist of the hospital. I had to take this test before my surgery on my gastric bypass, fortunately the psychologist did say that I realized I was too heavy and that I had a fighting spirit to lose weight.

Eventually I lost 58 kg and even though I'm proud of myself, I'm still in a maze in my head because there are a lot of things bothering me, the loss of my dad to suicide in 2017, which is very difficult for me. get comments on my life, eg you like to eat again, I am also lived by others. 2 weeks ago we got 380 volts from the meter cabinet of our street inside our house, lots of stuff broken. The insurance has the damage papers in, so that's gonna be fine, but this could take 1 year because experts are coming to see, this is okay, but this seems to me like I'm lying. My water boiler broke down, which led us to a water leak. Because of this we had to change our bathroom earlier than planned, it gives me stress and we're short against each other, something I can't handle. I can't do anything right in my gut and everyone is lashing out at me. One is angry with the other, but not saying it to each other but to me, if I say something in return to do good and help, then I am blamed for this. I had my borderline in spite of everything, well under control. I'm not depressed but I have an empty feeling, cry a lot but feel deeper I had to pin it down


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