Three steps ahead, two back...
Today, on day 16, I fall back hard and I have already smoked three cigarettes. For that, absolutely none! Can of course find all kinds of causes for it, but What I can see, I think, is that I have looked too frivolous at it. That I thought Miranda does for a while and maybe too overconfident, it all was, mostly thought I could do by myself.
There are some changes in my private, which make me very confused, so it's not very strange that I'm upset. Besides, I haven't had very good news about my health, but I don't want to anticipate that. does that, probably does and has fallen into a dip, with the result that other personalities, still from the time of my trauma, sometimes prevail. It has been
a long time since something like that happened. appointment with the pulmonologist, so I want to wait and see what he will tell, It is for the first time in my life that I go to a specialist because of my lungs. Then again I want to be able to say, that I don't smoke (anymore). So I consider this morning as a 'slider' and I put my quit smoking, from now on just go on. Maybe it's time for me to use a little extra support for smoking and maybe even for some trauma treatment, although I don't know where and how.
Ideas are therefore always welcome. Reporting it here will hopefully help a little. Also, if you see a very weird comment or blog from me, it might be an alter that plays up. Until now, I believe that hasn't happened yet.
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