I pulled the tie in my medicine cards today. The tie stands for aggression.
I honestly admit that this feeling has been very strong in my presence lately. To be honest, I find that I am completely reddished with the mudcaps that are mandatory in certain places, such as public transport and in shops. That's why I avoid the places like the plague. I buy as much online as possible. Sorry, local trade, but I really don't feel comfortable with you guys..
I was wondering if I was going to argue today in Brussels against the measures. I am radically opposed to the fact that people no longer have freedom over the fact that they are still allowed to keep their business open, who they are still allowed to receive, and so on.. I am tired of anger and frustration, because I have already lost several people to suicide and many people in my network are experiencing serious mental problems due to the measures.
And that's why I decided to stay home.
Each manifestation is hijacked by people with less beautiful intentions. There will always be a few of them who will demolish and then you will be powerless..
And then I think that in my frustration and powerlessness, I would also be able, if I stood there, to throw stones at the police.
Would I normally do that? ? no.
But these are not normal circumstances. These are states of force majeure.
Just as clear: I am against destruction and looting, but if I dwell on myself, I understand that the chances of normal people derail in these circumstances are real.
The drug cards do not appoint aggression as something negative. They are rather neutral to it. That is also true. Aggression is a force that allows you to fight. That could also be biting through. When I lay dead sick in my bed at the end of February, with all the symptoms of COVID, I fought for my life.
If I were to throw a rock at that cop, it would be the same force, but then it would be negative.
And then another factor: hormones. I'm in the transition. The down on my cheeks, my hot flashes.... All the testimonies are there. My estrogen is replaced by testosterone!
waits! Testosterone! That hormone is responsible for muscle building, but also causes aggression. That's why teenage boys sometimes become unruly. Normally they can enjoy themselves on a football field, in the gym.. That's not allowed now..
They need to sit at home. As a tarotist and spiritual consultant, I get more and more parents who can no longer control their teenage sons.
As a writer, I also have some teenage boys among my characters. I have to think like them. That's very easy now. As a woman I transition I also need a punching bag.
Jeez, that as a woman, at the end of her fertility, I would reason as a man in the beginning..
That explains why the ladies in the service center wear the pants. Their voices sound different than when they were young.
And so I understand why the Netherlands was demolished. That's how I understand why Brussels should burn.
I don't approve, but my hatred is tempered. As a teenage girl, I went to automutilation rather than demolish. Now I have to grow so old to understand that this is typical of how girls express their frustrations. Who get eating disorders, do self-mutilation and suffer internally. Guys are gonna break things down at that age if you don't steer them right.

We're all potential demolition